It’s nearing the end of July now and I’ve yet to make my “Summer To-Do List”. Well, there’s no time like the present!
1. Remove horrid wallpaper from spare room and paint the room (not started)
2. Write on blog (working on it)
3. Visit relatives in Parma Heights OH (accomplished yesterday!)
4. Read books! (currently reading Thomas Merton’s Seven Storey Mountain)
5. Learn to meditate (making good progress)
6. Get together with friends Christy, Carol, Katie, Carole, Kathy, Becky, Holly (no progress here)
7. Get my house thouroughly cleaned (some progress but those places are already in need of cleaning again…AND I can’t find my “dusting thing”)
8. Paint cabinets in kitchen (done!)
9. Go away for private retreat (did that in June but it was a short time and I wish I could go again!)
10. Get rid of clothes that are not flattering and/or comfortable…especially shoes (some progress)
11. Have some days where I can stay home and do very little (happened once I think)
12. Prepare new classroom (working on it)
13. Read over all standards and etc. for 2nd grade (not yet…)
14. Do some fun things with other people (Sunday had dinner with friends and went to outdoor concert, went to July 4 concert and fireworks, out to dinner with hubby and kids, browsing downtown with daughter, went to photo exhibit with group from church….not too bad!)
15. Ride my bike further than my own neighborhood (I’ve thought about it a few times…)
16. Take care of all those once a year medical type appointments (most scheduled)
17. Get computer fixed so it doesn’t make loud noise and works better (I got a phone number of a guy…)
Ok, that’s enough! God help me!
I think I’ll go to school now and keep working on number 12.
Embrace the Mystery
I would rather live in a world where my life is surrounded by mystery than live in a world so small that my mind could comprehend it.
-Harry Emerson Fosdick
I think that often we, I’m speaking as humans in general, feel the need to figure things out. We want to have an explanation of why things are the way they are, and how things happened, and what will happen next and who made these things happen, and what we can do about it. If it is beyond our mental capacity to figure something out we take some “expert’s” word for it and may never give it another thought. We feel in control if we have the answers.
It’s been a risky business, but in the last couple of years I’ve dared to question the “right” answers I’ve held on to in matters of faith and discovered that I don’t know half of what I thought I knew. I’ve had to admit that even the things of which I feel quite sure, may not in reality be quite the way I think they are. Further, I’ve concluded that for many questions there really are no definitive answers, and that it really does not matter. I trust that God loves not only me, but all of creation, enough to lead us through life and get us where we need to be by the time we’re done.
Living a life of faith in God means trusting enough to give up control and embrace the Mystery. I find that the universe if full of possibilities now that I no longer feel the need to have all the answers. I am not saying that there are no absolutes in faith; of course there must be. I am finding though, that there are far fewer absolutes that I once thought and that my faith becomes stronger the more I realize this. There is such freedom in embracing the mystery! Alleluia!